Ok, no most of you have not met me in real life but I don’t
choose easy for anything. The choice to have weight loss surgery is a hard
choice it is admitting I could not lose this weight on my own. For me it was
admitting I was a failure at one more thing in my life, I let my family and
myself down AGAIN. So when I made my doctor appointments (yes I said
appointments, with more than one doctor) and I walked through their office
doors I was looking for a quick fix but that is FAR from what I found. Most of
the doctors told me to lose 200 lbs. then come back, if I could do that why
would I come back? When I made my appointment with Dr. Nowzaradan, I had little
faith that he was really going to help me but when he told me he was going to,
I was ready to do whatever he ask me to do to have the surgery to change my
life.
It seemed like so many steps to get the surgery I wanted,
meeting with a psych doctor, meeting with a Dietitian, so many more
appointments but if he would have said stand on your head a bark like a dog I
would have done my best to do it, so I could have the life changing surgery. I
was just so sure I was going to have this surgery and the weight was going to just
fall off all on its own and would not have to do anything about it and my life
was going to be wonderful. Little did I understand there was going to be so
many up and downs and that I was going to have to watch everything I put in my
mouth and then the scale would still not move or even would go up instead of
down at times. I did not understand the will power that I was going to have to
get control of and the ideals I was going to have to get out of my head telling
myself that I am not eating that much. Little did I understand that I NOT this
surgery had control over my weight loss or weight gain.
Easy my A$$ it has been the hardest thing I have ever done
in my life and I would do it again every day. Every day of my life I am grateful
for all that I have been through it has shaped me given me the strength I did
not know I had. Every day I would take the same path I took to get me to where
I am today and every day I will fight to help others get to where they want to
be. As I said before the first step is
always the hardest, but if you know where you are going and you keep your eyes
on what you want the fight is worth the battle.
Until we meet again,
Mel
